As I observe myself, I realise that somewhere early in my childhood, I got into this habit of 'Living in the Mind'.
I began believing that living in the mind can be rewarding thing.
It probably began subtly - for example, I was told that, you can count your numbers and add them manually, using physical objects. You initially had 2 stones and a friend gave you 3 more. Now how many do you have?
It's good that you can physically count 5. But it is BETTER if you can do your math mentally!
And since I tasted early success there, I wanted more of it.
I suddenly wanted to solve everything in your mind.
I began believing that your ideas can solve something.
If I have better memory or am able to devise a better plan, write a more creative essay or crack a complex puzzle.. I am better.
So starting with my childhood, I embarked on this trip of being better in my mind - and gave it so much focus that I just began living there.
Everything had to be thought through perfectly.
Everything COULD be solved - only if you had the right formula, framework or philosophy by your side.
Thoughts became more important than feelings and the body became a means to just eat, drink & enjoy.
I never thought my body can also be considered as a mega sense organ which can help me observe how I am feeling overall.
Sure there were some people around me who were athletes and doing well in the physical realm.
But I had already resigned to my 'savior' hypotheses that claimed the mind & thought as omnipotent, capable of solving everything.
Now that I have experienced life a little more, I am able to see the limitations of the mind.
I also expect and observe that the athletes and dancers also have their minds playing their own games.
But we also have the examples of elite runners, musicians, climbers and others who report feeling a state of 'flow' when they are fully engrossed in their activity with all their senses.
So I guess the overall conversation is about experiencing life fully - with ALL our senses - not just the mind but also the body.
And it begins with actively listening to our body - beyond labels of weight, skin tone, etc
It as also much about accepting that the mind is NOT omnipotent and is also potentially part of the puzzle.
But like in the case of the pendulum, it is about knowing that the beauty is NOT at the other end of the mind-body spectrum of just indulging only the body.
You can drink & eat as much as you want and have every esoteric physical experience - but it's not about that as well.
Overall, it seems to be about existing on the mind AND body spectrum instead of just within the mind OR the body.
And overall it seems to be about being able to be part of both while being detached from both.
And an example from the theatre makes most sense here.
What makes a character compelling?
Is is the actor's dialogue or tonality?
Or is it the costume, the posture, their gait... the way they walk and the way they carry themselves on stage?
And I guess as an observer, the answer is a clear - ALL of the above 🙂