Are our actions just actions or are they affirmations of hope?
I have this belief that nobody willingly wants to be unhappy.

Every human action is an attempt at happiness, even those actions we don't agree with.
We believe they all lead to happiness eventually. Otherwise, we would not do them right?

So to that extent, every human action is an affirmation of hope that this will make me happier, in some way or the other.
Here, of course, the idea of happiness is as I define it in my own head.
But every action is looking at a better future.

Every time you lift a pen to journal...
Every time you go to the gym to work out...
Every time you make a phone call to a prospect...
Every every action you take, even this attempt at making a note is an attempt at happiness, right?
Knowing that this might help me be happier in the future.

But note the play of words over here...

It will help me be happier in the future.
Doesn't it imply that I am not very happy right now?
Happier in the future begins with the premise that the current situation is not that happy or that it can be 'happier'
That the current situation is not good enough.

So to that extent, I would like to imagine and explore whether every such action that we take with utmost conviction of future happiness, effectively stems from an equally deep conviction that the current moment is not good enough.

So every affirmative action is effectively also an affirmation of unhappiness.

I guess the mechanism at play over here is that we all want to be detached.

We know theoretically that we need to be detached from the outcomes - that we should be focussing on the process and enjoying the process .

But at least in my case, it is a slippery slope...

You begin something as an exploration for the sake of trying something out, but it doesn't take much for it to deteriorate or even evolve into this fervent hope that things are gonna get better through this. My actions stop being experiments.

They stop being attempts for the sake of attempts, but they start being hope covered in action that it's gonna lead to a better future and it is this feeling, this feeling of hope, which I think eventually brings in this feeling of being entangled.. of being heavy because it is also at the same time reinforcing this feeling that I'm not currently enough the current situation is not currently enough.

So I would like to explore how one can stay in this experimental phase - where I do something or its sake with acceptance of an uncertain outcome.

I would like my actions to remain experiments and not become affirmations.